Category: Essay

  • The Fundamental Problem

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    Ido a fanciful amount of projection. The only thing I ever really understood was myself and even as far as that is concerned, I am largely ignorant. Imagine that? The one thing you lay claim to still not being truly yours? I belong to myself as much as a leaf belongs to a branch that…

  • My Entangled Mind

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    I cannot forfeit the past, for long as it has been, it has assimilated itself as part of me. The moment present became past it became another building block of my soul, and even with hindsight, when it felt as if those building blocks should topple, not even Aeolus could bring them down with his…

  • A Lesson I Must Always Relearn

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    I’ve found that the most difficult thing for me to reconcile is how much I am actually able to control in my own life. If something goes wrong, it must be because of my own failings. That isn’t always the case. Sometimes things fall outside the realm of my influence, whether I like it or…

  • The Fever of Living

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    To be honest and true with myself has become my primary goal. From beginning to end, I have been and will ultimately only be in the grace of my own company, and how dreadful it must be, how awful it really is, to not understand what that entails and to be resistant to what obligation…

  • My Current Incarnation’s Thoughts at the Beginning of 2024

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    Of course, all things ultimately turn to dust. Did you think you had more time? It’s beyond control, a bull that only sees red. Even as you watch it charge toward you, you are powerless to keep it at a standstill. That is change and it is inevitable. Whether it makes a sudden or slow…